https://gbwrites.com/2023/07/23/thebiggerpersonmythos/
I’m Hard-Hearted, not Cold-Hearted. At the Same-Time: I’ve realized that the Warmness of a Heart gets extinguished via the Malice of Others. And, that’s precisely how/why I personally treat Certain-Persons Certain-Ways unapologetically. I specifically remember, when I was Young: not really my Father but my Mother…they’d always complain about me being Unyielding. I never cared…I viewed People how I viewed them & no one could ever make me do otherwise. My Mother used to literally attempt “shaming” me, for not “Playing-Nice” with those whom treated me, attempted to treat me, etc. like Shit.
From a Young-Age, I discovered/learned swiftly to grow hard & remain hard against any whom attempted or actually did mistreat me via any Way. I made Promises to myself to never be like those whom forgive everyone & just let “Bygones be Bygones”…Nah: Fuck dat. I’m a Resentful-Mothafucka…I hold Grudges.
I learned the Value of being a Grudger, from a Young-Age, as I observed through Life witnessing Others constantly/consistently getting Screwed-Over by Others. And, then those Same-Persons (like my own Mother for example) had the Audacity to expect me to tolerate/accept the Same Sucka-Shit which they allowed Others to impose upon them…da Fuck Outta Here. Nope…never happening.
(Literally) the Things I’ve been told, coupled with what I’ve personally witnessed: there’s no Mothafuckin-Way I’d ever let anyone get away with what those I know allowed Others to get away with. I either would’ve killed or maimed them, or I would’ve permanently cut them off/out of my Life. There’s a Difference between being Forgiving & being a Sucka. I’d rather be Unforgiving as opposed to being anyone’s Doormat.
I’ll give an Example: I remember one of my Mother’s-Brothers were Ill & they asked me to visit them. So, attempting to be a Filial-Child (as is a Farīdhah/Islāmic-Requirement by default/definition), I go visit them via the Hospital. This-Mothafucka began talk Real-Hot…I waa infuriated…I really don’t even remember what they said. But, the Way I was triggered…that I do remember. I literally wanted to veat the Shit out of them. But, I then thought about Lots of Things: Number-1…I’m a Muslim. Number-2…this is my Mother’s-Relative. Number-3…this is my Relative. Number-4…this is a Sick-Person. Number-5…this is a Ole-Nigga. Islāmically, I would’ve had 0-Wins if I would’ve done what I thought/felt to do via that Moment-In-Time…as Allah states: “And never let your hatred, against any People, prevent you from behaving justly.”.(Noble-Qur’ān: Chpt.5, V.8)
I still didn’t Fuck wit dem though for the Rest of their Life. I even told my Mother to not ever ask me to do anything for them ever again. And, I know that my Mother was upset behind that. But…so what?!!! It’s just Certain-Shit that’s never going to be OK with me.
I’ll give Another-Example: there were Several-Muslims who’ve done really Foul-Shit to me, like threatening & slandering me. And, there’s been Fellow-Muslims attempting to convince me to make Amends with those whom did me Wrong…No. Fuck dem Niggas. I’m under 0 Islāmic-Obligation to forgive anyone whom oppressed me. And I know for a Fact that they view me differently (via a Negative-Way), because, I refuse to let Those-Issues go. I don’t care…I’m not lettin Shit go.
There’s in fact 3-Types of Persons whom I never reconcile with nor forgive:
1. Those whom threaten me.
2. Those whom slander me.
3. Those whom swindle me.
Anyone whom talks that Fake Tough-Shit to me…I’m cutting them off permanently. Anyone whom fabricates Things about me…I’m cutting them off permanently. Anyone whom cheats me, attempts to cheat me, etc. out of Money…I’m cutting them off permanently.
All my Life, I’ve had to contest Sucka-Shit via Hardheartedness. And, honestly, it’s actually cost me Lots of Human-Relationships. It’s a Worthy-Sacrifice, to be guarded via Hard-Heartedness.
Gareth Bryant
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